La Plume Ambulante 🦋

Your fantasy

Picture perfect is what your are,

Melanin skin and ebony muscles,

Sceinted with the roughness of your kinky crown,

All wild yet soft like chocolate brown.

I never wanted you.

Despite what your image call for.

I was happy at the place you put me into,

Satisfied to call you my friend and mentor

Picture perfect is what your life is.

Accomplished man with big dreams and the world at his feet,

Snapping fingers to get what you want on a platter,

Barely fighting to survive because you are made to live forever

Picture perfect is what she is.

Beautiful and caressing like a flower,

With a torturous mind and jealous soul,

The angel that keeps you awake at night,

The sun ray illuminating your life.

And you would cross oceans for her...

Then why do I stay in your head ?

Because picture perfect is not what I am.

What do you think I can bring you that she doesn't have ?

Why do you lay and pretend the winds kissing your hips are my hands on your body ?

Why do you go to bed at night and wait for my lips to set you on fire ?

Why do you wait for darkness to be reminded of my existence ?

Fantasy is the name you gave me...

I am what she'll never be.

I am the one who won't call you back,

The one who picks your mind with abstract poetry,

The one to tell you about God and your deepest fears

The one to make you feel alive ?

But you made me your fantasy.

You decided that if you couldn't have me, you will still keep me in your head like you keep a bottle of wine in a cave,

Waiting for that image of me to mature and grow day after day,

You decided that I was good enough to be your friend,

But also that my body without my mind was enough for your ego,

You decided to never ask me to be her,

Instead you made me your night time favorite private movie.

But she doesn't know that, does she ?

Does she know that every time you kiss her you pretend it's me ?

And the bed you want to sleep in should be mine ?

Piercing her bubble will be such a shame...

For me.

Because I am still at the very same level in your life

An imaginary lover

A free home movie playing in your head

A shadow on your girlfriend's picture 

Your own picture perfect

Your fantasy

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